Not the television show, “Raising
Hope”, although it is some good slapstick comedy. No, I'm talking
about that other hope – hope. Hope is something that is ingrained
in a person as part of their emotional development. That is to say,
we give each other hope. When a person reaches a state of
hopelessness where they feel like they have no reason to adhere to a
sense of integrity then they will become controllable by anyone who
can project the illusion of power over that person.
A tribal people who are taken into
captivity and suppressed to the point where they become completely
controlled by their captors will do whatever those in control demand
of them. Often it will be at the threat of death to refuse to
co-operate. That is the ultimate control of a People, to enslave them
with no hope of freedom. When the People or individuals within that
tribe maintain a sense of hope that freedom is possible, they will
become at risk of escaping and will seek out any opportunity to skip
out, even risking their life to do so.
A successful escape from one's captors
is called an Exodus. My favorite example of a successful escape from
captivity is that of my ancestors who left the confines of their
captors, The United States government, and after walking from what is
now referred to as the State of North Carolina over the Great Smoky
Mountains range into East Tennessee, assimilated into the local
society of both settlers from Europe (and their entourage of slaves
and indentured servants) and the indigenous population.
A holocaust is a situation where a
people are taken captive and never escape through their own efforts.
History has many examples of how a People were completely destroyed
or assimilated into the dominate culture, as well as a few examples
of how a People were rescued from captivity before they were
destroyed.
Today I live in a society that has been
taken hostage by a captor that offers no hope. It is called drug
addiction. The only way those caught up in the throes of addiction
can escape is through the hope that is provided them through one of
several avenues. The most successful path to a productive and
responsible life is through the fellowship of other recovering
addicts who embrace a spiritual discipline that includes sharing hope
with each other. An important part of the hope a person is instilled
with is a sense of being valued. As they follow the spiritual path
into recovery they are introduced with a sense of purpose that can
only be embraced by remaining drug-free. Having a sense of purpose is
the greatest antidote over hopelessness.
Often times a person loses hope through
rejection from their family. When a person has a sense of purpose
that doesn't fit into the family dynamic, they will need to seek out
a peer group of people that accept them for whom they are in order to
overcome this rejection. Familial ties are very strong in a person's
sense of well-being, so rejection can feel like a death sentence. The
greatest challenge of all is for a person to feel like they have
nothing in common with anyone and their purpose in life is not valued
by society. In order to endure this experience one must have a strong
spiritual discipline that allows them to see past the immediate
situation into the greater aspect of reality. There are many Paths
that will guide a person through this discipline, and mine has come
through my indigenous culture.
Within the tribal spirituality of
Turtle Island (North America) there are two models by which one can
gain a sense of well-being that transcends person ego and social ego.
One is modeled from the symbol of the Spiral. This motif is common
throughout tribal culture globally and represents the Warrior's
journey into nothingness. In order to “tap out” at the center of
the spiral, the Warrior must let go of all illusions of self until he
becomes nothing. At that point in the journey the norm is for the
person to be restored to their full sense of self and be identified
within their community as a person who has traversed the Spiral. In
my own journey I was given the additional task of walking the Spiral
back to the point of beginning while functioning in the society of my
immediate environment.
The second model is referred to as the
Maze of Liberation from Self. While there are many overlapping
aspects of these two spiritual models, the second is not
gender-specific. This discipline is present in every human being
throughout their existence upon this planet. The teachings are
ingrained in the spirituality of every tribal culture globally. It
has also been presented as a “School of Spiritual Discipline”
under many names. Buddhism is one of these paths and offers a person
guidance through instructions on how to achieve liberation from ego
as represented in their desires and expectations. A person arrives at
this level of functionality, identified as one with the Buddha-mind,
after having arrived at the other side of the Maze of Liberation from
Self.
As documented elsewhere, there is an
additional discipline within my indigenous tribal culture referred to
as “The Seven Challenges of a Cherokee Medicine Man”. The
instructions regarding this discipline were imparted to me by the
Cherokee Medicine Man, Rolling Thunder, in Carlin, Nevada, in April,
1991. As events started to transpire in 2003 I recognized that I was
entering into the Seventh Challenge, which is to lose all support
from my community and Spirit Helpers, and function in this reality
for an undetermined amount of time until I have proven myself to be
capable of adhering to the spiritual teachings without attempting to
alleviate any duress throughout this time period. The best example of
this is The Book of Job, where Job never lost his sense of
connectedness to his purpose or the Universe as he observed all
material aspects of his reality dissolve around him. The difference
between Job and myself is that Job got to remain in his home
throughout his challenge. I lost my physical place through
foreclosure in 2007 and was evicted into homelessness.
In January, 2010, I completed all three
models of spiritual discipline simultaneously. According to the
feedback given to me through that intuitive relationship with the
Ancient Ones whom I dialogue with during deep meditation and/or dream
time, I am the first human being to complete all three disciplines at
the same time. I am also the first person to complete the Seven
Challenges in over 120 years. I really had no interest in doing any
of this. I was invested with a sense of purpose and was willing to
risk my life if need be, but I wanted to hold on to who I was as an
entity no matter what. Rather than be reintroduced back into society
at that level of achievement, I must continue to do a reversal of the
Warrior's Spiral back to the point of beginning. This left me hanging
out there without support of any kind for brief periods of time,
including the absence of Spirit Helpers.
Signs would appear along the way that
indicated that these Spirit Helpers were returning to be present
throughout my daily life. One of those was the sudden intense odor of
what smelled like the seasoned hide of a buffalo one day while
staying with a friend in Seymour, Tennessee. I had all my belongings
of the time in my car and was sleeping on their floor in a sleeping
bag. One day I went out to get clean clothes before taking a shower.
The odor was familiar but it took me a few days to figure out what it
was. I refer to it as “my clean clothes smell like a buffalo
wallow”. The odor is the sign that the White Buffalo Calf Woman has
given me a blessing. I joked with a friend back in 1989 about getting
fired from a job because I smelled like a buffalo. (I never did get
paid the $2000 I was supposed to earn based upon a contract with
those folks. I blew it off as part of my support of the wife of the
couple who had hired me, as she had recently lost a child during
miscarriage and went off the deep end for a little while.) Now I
really do smell like a buffalo sometimes, which is hard to do in this
society that is ignorant of such blessings.
Throughout my life there have been
challenges that were difficult to work past, other than what has been
discussed so far. Life goes on in spite of one's living a disciplined
life. One of those challenges has been the presence of an energy that
has been identified as a jin. There are a number of schools of
thought that offer models by which we identify challenges in our
lives. Some are better than others at this process but none are
perfect in the naming of reality with respect to spiritual
challenges. When using the model of “Demons” to identify
adversity, all some schools of thought suggest that one's reality is
an external representation of one's spiritual self, serving as a
mirror of where one is at. Others suggest that the effort to achieve
greatness in the face of adversity is responded to with enough
adversity to make sure the person really wants to get there.
Sometimes adversity is there to show the person that they really are
who they have become when they have completed a spiritual journey.
I don't remember the exact date when I
first encountered a jin. I remember waking up one night while
sleeping next to my wife of that time and sensing that someone was in
the room with us. I struggled to wake up and protect my family from
this invader. I felt like I was trapped in deep sleep and couldn't
wake up. Finally I was able to open one eye and look at the foot of
the bed, even though I couldn't move any other muscle in my body. I
saw this man sitting there who looked like the ugliest man I had ever
seen. His body looked like it was made out of a sponge or something
very porous like that. As soon as he sensed that I was looking at me
he looked directly into my eyes for a second, then blinked and
dissolved into smoke. He moved to my wife's face and she inhaled the
smoke flowed into her nostrils and was gone. I knew then that she was
hosting a demon. I didn't know that it was a demon until many years
later when a friend who followed the Islamic Way told me the kind of
demon I had seen based upon my description. She also related that
according to the historical information, a person would go insane if
they looked a jin in the eyes like that.
I think the person hosting a jin goes
insane whether they ever see it or not. It is not a healthy energy to
host. We were divorced a few years later and it stayed crazy anyway.
She always projected this sense of having domination over me no
matter what the circumstances were. I intuited that she was deriving
this false sense of security and control from the jin. As things
transpired I was cut off from any relationship with our two sons. I
would send letters as they grew up but I was told that they would not
read them or keep any presents I sent out of fear of reprisal from
their mother.
As I entered into the next marriage in
this timeline, I became aware that things weren't as they appeared on
the surface. I could tell that there was a similar dynamic going on.
As the marriage ran its course and was terminated via divorce, I
found myself talking to yet another “former spouse”. As we sat
talking about the financial needs of our daughter I observed her skin
being transformed into a sponge-like texture and this very ugly man
projected an image of his self over her skin. I blinked a few times
and it was still there. I didn't know what was going on in the
moment, but remained calm and completed the conversation. Later,
during meditation, I realized that the jin that this person was
hosting had become so emboldened in its sense of control that it
allowed itself to be seen by me, perhaps anticipating that I would go
crazy when I looked into it's eyes. It should have known already that
I had already been field tested. I was riddled with anxiety, which
was an understandable response to the situation I was in, but I
didn't go crazy.
I love the ending to this story about
the jin, and I think it is important to include this information in a
narrative about raising hope. While attempting to reconnect with
anyone who was willing to do so following the completion of the Seven
Challenges, I sent a few e-mails to an old friend, Donna Schoolfield.
In the fall of 2012 she brought it to my attention that she had been
following the activities of a person who had been in active duty but
went rogue from his military station in his respective country. As
she related his profile I started to intuit that he was hosting a
jin. Her request was that I neutralize the demon he was hosting. Her
expectation might have been that once the demon was exorcised that he
would realign himself with goodness and come in out of the cold. That
wasn't the case, and I realized it as I worked through this
challenge. I started having dreams of this man. I started identifying
news stories of unusual events to be associated with his activities.
He was not a good person at all.
The person has free will and how things
work out in that regard wasn't part of my participation. I had only
been asked to address the negative energy the person was hosting. As
I surmised that this was a jin and started to figure out how to
engage the jin in some manner that would cause it to exit the
premises I discovered what set the jins apart from the rest of the
lot of demons. Jesus was able to dialogue with the demons that
“Legions” was hosting and arrive at an agreement with them to
exit the premises in that situation, but it was no help in this case.
Anytime a jin was in duress it would send out a distress call and all
the other jins in the Universe would stop what they were doing and
arrive to assist the threatened jin. That culmination of a host of
jins was why it was impossible to use the more common methods of
neutralization with them. I had no idea of what to do, really, but I
knew it was time and at some point, documented in e-mail messages to
Donna Schoolfield, I waved a red flag in that jin's face like it was
a charging bull in a bull fight and off we went.
Since nothing else would work and I
knew that any demon would feel at home in hell, I dove into hell. As
we went deeper and deeper into the nine levels of hell, the jin
started to experience a bit of duress and sent out a distress call to
it's kind. Suddenly I was being chased through hell but all the jins
in the Universe. There was only one place to go and that was to the
deepest depths of Hell. When I got there I was in a sea of
nothingness. I knew that the deepest levels of hell would dissolve
all aspects of “self” and I didn't have much time to do
something. The jins were moving in unaware of their situation, intent
only upon engaging in conflict with me. I had been into the
nothingness through the spiritual disciplines and noted that this
level of nothingness wasn't that much different from that of
liberation for self. I sensed that the highest peaks of “heaven”
were just on the other side of a very thin membrane and in order to
pass through that membrane I would have to become “nothing”, if
only for a nanosecond. The aspects of not doing this looked about the
same, but for a much longer indeterminate time. I did the exercise of
“nothingness” and moved towards that membrane. I felt myself
passing through it. As I got to the other side I sensed that a
Thunder Being was waiting for me. As soon as I was fully through the
Old Man threw a spark in my direction and I became self again. The
entire body of jins were left on the other side to bounce off that
membrane for a very long time. When they change the direction they
are going in and head back to the greater good of all things in this
Universe, they will become better entities for having gone through
this experience. The video, Voices (a desert song) was inspired by this experience.
Meanwhile, I knew that I had done
something that had never occurred before in the history of the
Universe. It was completely unknown before that moment that it was
possible to pass through the membrane separating heaven and hell. I
had to make an appearance before what I refer to as The Council, a
body of ascended entities who have some voice in how things are going
in this Universe. I made an appearance during a dream. They related
that they appreciated my efforts to occupy the jins with the
challenge of liberation from the depths of hell, and they said they
would overlook how I managed to escape, but they also asked that I
never did that again. Whew! Some mornings I wake up from dreams that
are better than any science fiction that I've ever read.
Anyway, I was given a task and
experience that helped me to identify the validity of my spiritual
condition. I had lived and survived in what appeared to be a hopeless
situation as I traversed the Maze of Liberation from Self while also
muttering along through the Spiral and Seventh Challenge. I don't
think it takes near as long to do one as it does to do all three, as
they all have to line up just right for me to progress to the next
dissolvement of any illusions I might have about self. Liberating
myself from all those jins who had been making my life as difficult
as possible from as long as I can remember was the icing on the cake.
I have an opportunity to convey this
narrative of hope to the Universe in order to let others know that it
is possible to transcend all challenges that would appear to hinder
one from achieving liberation from selfish desires and expectations.
That doesn't eliminate the pain of interacting with others who are
still hell-bent upon achieving their selfish desires and
expectations. We are like the jins in some respect. We are all
related and we are all in this together until ever human spirit has
achieved liberation from self. Jins may be highly damaged human
spirits who are starting all over again from the bottom of the heap,
so we keep them in our prayers as we seek to have all our relations
find this Sacred Path into Freedom.
In my efforts to continue the work of
passing on my experiences, I have the opportunity to instill hope for
all those who seek freedom from bondage of selfish intentions. While
every breath that I take exhales into a spirit of freedom that
spreads throughout the atmosphere for as long as I am alive, I have
other ways of sharing this hope as well. A touch, a song, a voicing
of hope in any manner, visual art, poetry, video works, and music are
all vehicles by which I am able to imbed the spirit of freedom into
the mind's of others. It is my intention to honor my purpose in the
Universe. I will embrace every opportunity to do so. I am able to
share these milestones of where the Path leads and mark the Path with
these signs of hope, that it is humanly possible to achieve this goal
of total freedom from all illusions. I achieved this status in this
life-time as per the instructions that were given to me in 1977
during my first effort to seek an audience with Rolling Thunder in
Carlin, Nevada. On the morning I was to meet with him I heard a voice
telling me something right before I woke up. “You don't get a
teacher this life time. The entire Universe is your teacher this
time.” From this experience I can relate that it is humanly
possible to achieve liberation and freedom without a teacher or
instructor of these spiritual disciplines, but I don't recommend it.
Be grateful for those teachers that put up with you. I know I am
grateful for all those who guided me up to that point where I was
able to take that leap of faith and do it without the presence of an
on-going, hands-on guide. They did a damn good job of it.
Love,
Oliver!
© Oliver Loveday June 4, 2014 2:40pm
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